Three notes for today

One

When we wanted to get the project i have been developed in the last few weeks to go live, it fucked up, and made really strange things.

I have three bosses. Call it four. Gentle is the CEO, and of course, the best guy because he just does not make any worries.

“Hungarians!” he says every day he see me.
“Hallo Gentle”, I tell him.

Sometimes he just says just my name.
Then I say him his back.

Smiling all day.
Luxury class Volvo.
Life is peachy.

The third one, the Russian.
If You've seen a big fat computer science guy ever, he was that.
Glasses.
Fatface.
The manifestation of a stereotype.
Nevertheless, the best guy there.

the positive force fiend ate up the rest of this post fortunatetly

Two

Caffee Ajlensted tonight?
Ingang drie euro.
Isn't it a nonsense?

• Doing the laundry in the Guesthouse.
• Drinking a high-category cheap wine while doing the laundry in the Sonnehaus.
• Two beers in an average pub.
• A six-pack of Red RIZLA+
• A pre-made joint
• Three big package of grapes at the market.
• Almost three stroopwaffels
• Chatting with at least five minutes on the phone with one of those I really like
• Having a wank. And than You get still three euro left.

Caffe Ajlensted always gives me something I regret.
Shithole.


Three

I just had an evening at Thinline's place that made sense.

Finally.
No ignorance at all.

Thank You.

Wear Sunscreen

I've just found this again.
Once, that was really important to me.
I'm sure you will enjoy at least one sentence of it as well.

If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long-term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists, whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience. I will dispense this advice now.

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth.
Oh, never mind.
You will not understand the power
and beauty of your youth until they've faded.
But trust me, in 20 years, you'll look back at photos of
yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much
possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked.
You are not as fat as you imagine.

Don't worry about the future.
Or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as
trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum.
The real troubles in your life are apt to be things
that never crossed your worried mind, the kind that
blindside you at 4 pm on some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing every day that scares you.

Sing.

Don't be reckless with other people's hearts.
Don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.

Floss.

Don't waste your time on jealousy.
Sometimes you're ahead,
sometimes you're behind.
The race is long and, in the end,
it's only with yourself.

Remember compliments you receive.
Forget the insults.
If you succeed in doing this, tell me how.

Keep your old love letters.
Throw away your old bank statements.

Stretch.

Don't feel guilty if you don't know
what you want to do with your life.
The most interesting people I know didn't know at
22 what they wanted to do with their lives. Some
of the most interesting 40-year-olds I know still don't.

Get plenty of calcium.

Be kind to your knees.
You'll miss them when they're gone.

Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't.
Maybe you'll have children, maybe you won't.
Maybe you'll divorce at 40,
maybe you'll dance the funky
chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary.
Whatever you do, don't congratulate yourself
too much, or berate yourself either.
Your choices are half chance.
So are everybody else's.

Enjoy your body.
Use it every way you can.
Don't be afraid of it or of what other people think of it.
It's the greatest instrument you'll ever own.

Dance,
even if you have nowhere to do it but your living room.

Read the directions,
even if you don't follow them.

Do not read beauty magazines.
They will only make you feel ugly.

Get to know your parents.
You never know when they'll be gone for good.

Be nice to your siblings.
They're your best link to your past and the people
most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go,
but with a precious few you should hold on.
Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle,
because the older you get, the more you need the
people who knew you when you were young.

Live in New York City once, but leave before it
makes you hard. Live in Northern California
once, but leave before it makes you soft.

Travel.

Accept certain inalienable truths:
Prices will rise.
Politicians will philander.
You, too, will get old.
And when you do, you'll fantasize that when you
were young, prices were reasonable, politicians
were noble, and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.

Don't expect anyone else to support you.
Maybe you have a trust fund.
Maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse.
But you never know when either one might run out.

Don't mess too much with your hair or by the
time you're 40 it will look 85.

Be careful whose advice you buy,
but be patient with those who supply it.
Advice is a form of nostalgia.
Dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal,
wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts
and recycling it for more than it's worth.

But trust me on the sunscreen.

Mary Schmich

..By the way..

Listen to Sunscreen

Dutch People are Happy

Yes, they are

Trying to wake up. Day 19.

Project Challenged. Need to quit weed now.
Need to start looper.hu again. That made sence.

I was here:
http://michaelkerrigan.sarok.org/
http://nemvagyokidiota.sarok.org/

You must leave now, take what you need, you think will last.
But whatever you wish to keep, you better grab it fast.
Yonder stands your orphan with his gun,
Crying like a fire in the sun.
Look out the saints are comin' through
And it's all over now, Baby Blue.

The highway is for gamblers, better use your sense.
Take what you have gathered from coincidence.
The empty-handed painter from your streets
Is drawing crazy patterns on your sheets.
This sky, too, is folding under you
And it's all over now, Baby Blue.

All your seasick sailors, they are rowing home.
All your reindeer armies, are all going home.
The lover who just walked out your door
Has taken all his blankets from the floor.
The carpet, too, is moving under you
And it's all over now, Baby Blue.

Trying to wake up. Day 1.

Joint is the only thing allowed.

6:50
Radiohead - Everything in its right place.
I wake up.
Feels like some nightmare.
what's happening?
My hearth starts to beat faster.
faster, and faster.
Morning, i realize. Morning after three hours of sleep. Feels like yesterday. That was no night.

The plans. the plans I have. Eat. Eat a lot. Have a coffee.
Have a cigarette. No way.

No sense. Have to take a shower.
Okay, I have 15 minutes more.
Eat a lot.
Have a coffee.
Have a cigarette.
No way.

Cold BIO bread, butter and shitty cheese. Even much better we have in Hungary. 2 minutes to go.

Go.

5 minutes passed.

What was that?

go, quick, go..
take large steps! get the elevator! My heart starts to beat fast. faster.

5 more minutes to the tram stop. Can't be late.
Got it.

I don't want to sleep.
Big day today.
I don't want to sleep.
I sleep.

Endpünkt.

Centraal Station. That cache machine will eat a lot of money. I know the company.
Albert Hein to go. 30 chewing gums to go.

15 minutes to haarlem.
I don't want to sleep.
I sleep now.
I sleep now.

Haarlem.

Better. Just take a walk and have a cigarette.
No way.

Nobody working. I'm alone. 20 minutes early. Fuck it. Wont have the money for It. Check the emails.

The snuff is here. Just In case. 29 chewing gums left. Good time.

Stroopwaffels. Just in case.
Energy drink.
Just. In. Case.

8.5 hours passed. No problem. I'm to tired to be worried. Just be awaken. I don't want to sleep.

It's getting better. It's 17:35 and I'm still successful.

Get home. Meet the guy I always meet. He looks like not to be worried about meeting me twice every week. I'm not sure. Like him. But still. No words.

I give him the hand. I saw that. Never give a hand to collegues.
Tram passed.
Amsterdam Sloterdijk, or something like that.

I take off. I always will. The tram 51 is one of the most boring thing you could imagine.

And the way to the Guesthouse.
The Amsterdam Isolation trip. you will get tired of that city if you live here.

Zuid, WTC. Tram 5 is alway crowded. Hate it. The first time I used the mass transit, somebody asked me for a ticket. I didn't have. Really hate the tram five.

You should change. Thing are getting better.

I have to wash the curtains. No energy. Have to work, no energy, have to love, no energy, have to decorate, have to be nice, have to be toghether, have to study, have to plant them, have to clean up.

No energy.

My Room.
Everything in its right place.

Have a Coke. Have a cigarette.
No way.

Have a Cigarette.
No. way.

Take the snuff. Now. The used one will fit you. believe me. 10 minutes are enough. Just drop it out.

Have a beer. Have an oral fixation. Have a beer. And have a beer. Have the oral input. Whatever.

Have some conversation.
Now, You just told what you meant. Perfect. Things getting better. Don't be depressed.
- I'm not.
Great. Go ahead.


Leave now.
Have what you deserve. Go to your room. You have to sleep.
- I have to sleep.
Great. Go ahead.

The room smells nice. 3 incenses made the job.
Roll your tobacco. Roll it, with the alibi having a joint.

good.

get out. now.

Shut down your PC and do something. Buy some records or whatever.